Josh's Wings

My heart’s desire is for the Lord to allow Josh to come to me in a dream. Many of the moms in my support group have had this blessed event. It is a very rare occasion, and when a mom shares the visit with us, we all are so very happy for her.

 I want that feeling of having my boy for just a split second, hug me and tell me he is ok. I know he is ok and healed, but oh this momma heart needs just once…..

Josh has come to four people. Not just a normal dream, but they knew he was there.

One was Regina, our dear friend who cut his hair as a little boy. She said she saw him from afar. She knew he was not in the world she was in. He was walking down the street with a few other boys. One boy in particular was a blond boy, walking right next to Josh. As they passed by, Josh looked over at her and said, “Oh, Hi!” She said there was nothing but happiness and peace.

Right after Josh died, he appeared to his therapist, Maria. He hugged her and said, “Everything is fine. My mom will take care of everything.”

The third person he appeared to was his barista friend Vanessa. They were on bar making coffee. As usual, she said he was on number one bar. She said he always had to be in control. Haha She said he was so happy and told her not to worry, that their SB crew would all be together again one day.

Then today. I had lunch with Ann who has always been a grandmother figure in Josh and Amber’s life. She said he came to her and it was as if he was behind a white vale. His arms stretched out as if praising God. Wings covered the back of him and a bright light was illuminated in front of him. Ann wanted to paint what she saw in the dream. She painted several pictures of it and was trying to include a butterfly in the painting. Each and every time she finished the painting, something happened to it and it was messed up. She felt the nudging to paint just what she had seen in the dream, nothing added. So she began. It only took her about 40 minutes to paint just what she saw.

I know many will think I have lost my mind believing it was Josh visiting them. I choose to believe it was. I have dreamed about him but it is always about him in the past.

In Psalm 61:4 it says: I long to dwell in your tent forever; and take refuge in the shadow of your wings.

My precious Joshy, you are dwelling in the Lord’s tent forever and you are in the shadow of His wings. You are covered with His wings. You are safe and you are healed.